Days 159-213: Changes & Challenge “Fails”
Wow. I haven’t written in a LONG time, and yes, I know had bad that looks for my Jesus Year Challenge. A lot has been happening over the past couple months that I couldn’t be super public about (not that there are tons of people looking at my lil’ ole blog). But, now that it’s out in the open at work, I can say on the internets for all to read, I’M MOVING TO NASHVILLE! Big changes ahead as I prepare for the next chapter.
The move is something my family and close friends have known was coming for the past several months and now it’s only a few months away, which seems crazy. I’m scared and excited and anxious and happy and sad and every other emotion that would be wrapped up in leaving a place you’ve lived for 11 years to move somewhere new. I think big life changes only get harder the older you get, so I definitely did not come by the decision to relocate (again) lightly.
Of course there are a lot of “whys” when I tell people I’m moving. (Especially from my ultra-lib friends who can’t understand why I’d want to move to a red state.) I moved to LA when I was 22, and the dreams that drove me out here were largely professional in nature. I was envisioning what my career would be, with little thought about anything else. Now that I’m 33, I think a lot more about what my hopes and dreams are for my personal life. It’s no secret that with age comes wisdom, and I know I’m stating the obvious when I say there are more important things in life than your career. I thought that by wanting to work in entertainment I just HAD to be in NY or LA (both cities I have called home and adored). Of course that is not the case, but try convincing a head-strong 22 year old who wanted to be a studio casting exec one day that she could have a similarly rewarding career in a smaller market. I dare you.
Dreams change. They take on different shapes and everything looks different through older/wiser eyes. I know I want to buy a house someday; I know this is still many moons away from being a possibility in LA where I still live pretty close to paycheck to paycheck with a roommate. Cost of living can be a dream kitchen killer y’all. I know I want to have children someday, and I know that I don’t want to raise them in Los Angeles. I know I want to be within driving distance of my parents, who are (obviously) 11 years older than when I first got to California. I want to be able to spend more than a few days a year with them – something I have not been able to do living out here. Above all, I just feel ready for a change, and I can’t adequately express everything that goes along with that in a blog post.
So, with this move creeping up in a matter of weeks, I’ve created my LA Bucket List, which includes all of the things I want to do, places I want to go, and food I want to eat one last time before I go.
- Day trip to Sequoia
- Wine trip
- The Broad
- Palm Springs weekend
- Grammy Museum
- Kings game
- Super Soul Sunday at The Short Stop
- Pacific Park rides at Santa Monica Pier
- Universal Studios – Harry Potter Land
- Beach bonfire
- Roller skating at Moonlight Rollerway
- Runyon hike (before it closes for maintenance)
- Movie night at The Vista with drinks at Good Luck Bar
- Show at Hotel Cafe
- Bread pudding at Alcove
- Steak Frites & a Writer’s Block at Perch
- Drinks at The Varnish
- Sushi, sushi and more sushi
- Korean BBQ
- Bossa Nova